There was a hunger inside of me,
You think it was just for food,
But it was so much more.
This hunger was yearning to feel
There was a disconnect inside of me,
From my sense of self,
My sense of safety
I didn’t know what it meant
to feel a safe connection
To feel that security within myself
I didn’t trust myself
My body or my mind
This felt like the only way out
I had powerful emotions,
And I was ashamed to have to feel them.
I began to learn that healing was an option
And that it consisted of key points
Time, awareness, and practice.
I began to broaden my world
And those I allowed a place within it.
There is a light burning through me
That is reclaiming parts of myself
That have felt hidden and rejected
There was a whole world kept from me,
A whole me kept from me
Sometimes I look in the mirror now
And I smile
I am becoming a friend to myself
And maybe, it’s not a new me-
Maybe it was the me I was always supposed to be.